What to do about it?

For me, life is not going to change, unless God in His sovereign will heals me or allows doctors to find a cure, so what am I to do about it?

Well last night, I just went to bed and when Dave asked me what I was doing I said "I am watching TV, I don't feel like dealing with the real world right now." I was coming out of a bad episode where I had not been able to talk or walk for several hours, this whole time I was trying to watch my son play goalie for his ice hockey team, I was very frustrated!!!

As I came into the house, I just went to bed with tears in my eyes frustrated that this is my life now and it is not going to change! I now have daily episodes and often one or two a day. Mornings are always hard and sometimes I get a break and the late afternoon and evenings are better, I just can't go very late.

So for me, life is not going to change. That being the case, how do I be a good wife and a mother and not focus on myself at all times? I am not sure. I will be thinking about that and sharing some of my thoughts over the next several days.

Teach Me Thy Way, O Lord

Teach me Thy way, O Lord, teach me Thy way!
Thy guiding grace afford, teach me Thy way!
Help me to walk aright, more by faith, less by sight;
Lead me with heav'nly light, teach me Thy way!

When I am sad at heart, teach me Thy way!
When earthly joys depart, teach me Thy way!
In hours of loneliness, in times of dire distress,
In failure or success, teach me Thy way!

When doubts and fears arise, teach me Thy way!
When storms o'erspread the skies, teach me Thy way!
Shine through the cloud and rain, through sorrow, toil and pain;
Make Thou my pathway plain, teach me Thy way!

Long as my life shall last, teach me Thy way!
Where'er my lot be cast, teach me Thy way!
Until the race is run, until the journey's done,
Until the crown is won, teach me Thy way!

May I be be a good student dear Lord