Some rainy days, but the sun still shines

Well I have not written for a while because I have had some really bad days with episodes lasting for hours. Last Thursday it took two people to get me out of bed dressed and they even washed my hair!

Well I don't want to spend this time complaining I want to to tell you a story.

Last week, my boys were involved in a Veterans dinner for their homeschooling co-op. They proudly nominated me to make a lasagna. I tell you this because even though my boys see me unable to walk and many time unable to talk, they still think of me as a normal mom who will make a lasagna for their event! That made me feel so good, almost normal :)

Again this past Saturday, in the rain and the mud, Val wanted me to spend the day watching his soccer tournament (which his team won! and we broke my wheelchair in all that mud!) It is things like this that make me proud to be a mom and these are the things that I need to remember during an episode. My boys love me, my husband loves me and even Carrie my niece signed me up to make a cake for parent's weekend at Grove City this weekend! This reminds me that they still see me as mom, wife and aunt, much like God does not see our sin buy only sees us through Christ shed blood, because we know that without the shedding of blood, there is no remission for sin.

I tend to see myself more disabled than those around me and I definitely see myself as a sinner saved by grace.

You see, there is always grace to found in Christ, even those who often times feel sorry for themselves.

Let us think of these wonderful words written by John Newton

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis Grace that brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me.
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

When we've been here ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun.

Grace is Amazing!